I’ve given myself the chance to ask question and fully be a student. Our class is intimate and I feel comfortable asking question and participating in a way that I’ve never done before.

The consequence of allowing yourself to ask questions is a total loss of confidence. For the first time in many years I felt like I just didnt know what to do during a session. It’s an interesting feeling.

My experience is that this will lead to growth. A new outlook on the work I’ve done so many times.

In other news, yesterday I attended the life celebration of my friend and president of the school Richard. He died of cancer and his life was remembered and celebrated by friends and family. Richard was an amazing man, intelligent and mischievous. I had a vision of advanced training and it wont be like that, and it simply wont be like that with him not here.

Doing a dissection I was given a physical gift of a life lived. While I’m not there yet, I’m getting more comfortable with death. That doesnt make me miss my friends any less.